At Odds

I want to be in a club, music blasting, head spinning, dancing and dancing till the world ends.

I want to be by the beach, in the sun, peering at everyone behind my sunglasses, drink in hand and dreaming about nothing.

I want to be in my bed, wrapped up in the sheets, beside a hot cup of Earl Grey, holding on to my Samsung Galaxy Tab, reading, with the rain pelting down on the windows.

I want to be meeting people from all walks of life, every second of the day, indulging in priceless conversation, with me listening at rapt attention.

I want to be alone, shut everything out, maybe with a bit of music, but alone with my own thoughts, till I figure out what I'm thinking.

I want to be the one that everyone knows, that everyone is proud to know, that everyone wants to talk to, that everyone has an opinion about.

I want to be with the same group of close friends and family all the time, because I know I don't need more and they'll always be there and I can always be me.

I want to be the owner of a house on the fortieth floor with a view of the sunset, like an egg yolk sinking into the ocean, and a dog resting at my ankles.

I want to be in a village, full of children speaking a language I don't understand, waking up to the cold and the sound of chickens under my house on stilts.

I want to be a writer.

I want to be a singer.

I want to be a host.

I want to be...

Maybe I should first aim to be someone with less contradictions eh?