Embracing the Future

I visited the dentist this week.

The dentist happens to be my granduncle, whom I've never met.

I dislike visiting the dentist because they never have anything good to say about my teeth. When I was younger, the one in school always scolded me. I dreaded lying almost horizontally with my mouth open, feeling vulnerable.

It wasn't different this time. My teeth are a mess so I'm sure by opening my mouth, I would already be a dentist's nightmare. If there's one thing I hate about how I look, it's my teeth. I remember standing on stage and someone took a photo of me from below. I could see a tooth stuck awkwardly behind my top row of teeth and every since then I've been conscious about opening my mouth really wide, or cameras shooting from below while filming video clips.

A recent example would be the one I did for Put Your Heel Down. It's my own nightmare looking at my teeth.

The dentist cleaned up my teeth and chided my inadequate brushing technique. I took an X-ray of my teeth, twice, because the first time the assistant didn't load the film. They got a mould of my teeth. The material that I sank my teeth in tasted like minty chewing gum. When I turned, I could see my X-Ray held against the light and indeed, it looked scary. My wisdom teeth were horizontal (if I understood correctly what I was looking at) and the dentist mentioned that I would have to remove them sooner or later.

But before that, before he puts the braces, he would have to extract at least 4 teeth. This will happen on the 6th April. And I need to bring 1.6k along as a downpayment.

I'm not looking forward to this entire process. It sounds nasty. But hopefully with every visit I will become less insecure about my teeth.

Can't wait to finally get this started and then, out of the way.

Stream of Consciousness

So I sat through an hour of lecture by the great Lady Gaga. Actually learned a lot, felt inspired and felt my brain being stretched. She said many things - some took awhile to make sense, others were funny, while the rest was enlightening. She talked about art, about messaging, about promotion, about branding. She spoke of breaking free from the past, not living life in regret, fighting the "darkness" and finding your "specialness". It was really inspiring.

Went to Far East Movement's Free Wired Tour at Wavehouse last Thursday. I enjoyed myself tremendously. Their music was great and they were entertaining. It's my first time to a beach gig and I quite like the atmosphere. I was so crazy that I bought a $38 FLY LIKE A G6 T-shirt! It was lots of fun.

Music is a huge part of my life and this week I got a chance to do a recording for Lyon in the school's studio! Pamy sang it and I just popped in to provide the backing vocals. If you're curious you can download it here. It's just a rough one I think and Lyon is still working on it. I downloaded it and after multiple listens, I quite like it! Kudos to the composer.

I can't wait to sing at Kbox. Think it will happen soon with the OGLs or Ryan, possibly next week.

Another thing that I'm looking forward to next week - King Kong Jane's gig at Home Club next Friday.

Despite music being the one thing I love the most, I'm a writer at heart.

Celebrate!

It was 8:10pm. I woke up to the the alarm of my handphone, those annoyingly cheery alarm tones and then, flashes of lightning. For the first time I was slightly afraid and I cowered a bit under my blanket but still everything lit up and I felt invaded and vulnerable. I checked my phone again and saw Colin's MMS - King King Jane ascended to #4 on the HMV Charts.

I stared out the open window at the sky defiantly, wistfully. More than six months of hard work ended yesterday with the Go Red For Women Picnic Day at Sengkang. It was unreal. When it ended, Amos' mentioned that it was as if it didn't happen. I agreed. We knew it happened, we were aware that it was carried out but it was so unreal. We didn't feel any different physically or mentally. We were still the same, but the momentous event happened.

There were many moments. The sponsors who were there saw engagement with their brands, which was fantastic because they did something interactive and integrated well with our event - Gardenia's huge bread mascot and Amore's Stretchfit demonstration. Kite-flying was successful in terms of number of attempts. It was heartening to see so many people running like crazy to get the kites off the ground despite the lack of wind. Can't complain when it didn't rain!

My moment happened when King Kong Jane took the stage. I had just seen them at Esplanade the night before and here they were at my event, playing a 30 minute set. It was special. I could finally show my friends why I liked King Kong Jane. It's not just because I am friends with Colin. It is all because I am friends with Colin! He mentioned that the event was not just organised by the Singapore Heart Foundation, but also 4 NTU students, his juniors. He told of how we slogged for the event and that he understood because he had done an FYP before. He said that he was invited by his "old friend Jason".

For four years I've been seeing King Kong Jane take the stage in NTU, in polys, at Suntec, at Raffles Place, at Timbre and just like their album which has risen to new heights, they were performing at new places, at the GRFW Picnic Day, at Sengkang!

QQ and I were there together when this took place and we were very moved. A bit wanna cry. After these many mentions of my name, my family stood and applauded loudly after their set. The crowd was appreciative too... I saw people around me, unfamiliar faces, happy and clapping.

Till now I still feel it, how touched I was at that moment. It was crazy. Colin has really went out of his way to do so much for the event, for my team. Amos, Ruiqi and I listened to a copy of the newly-bought and signed album in Amos' car on the way back home.

Thank you, the three of you... we brought our ideas to life.

Thank you, my family, for being there in full force.

Thank you to the people of SHF for all your hard work.

Thank you, the 6 of you, for being there and bringing friends.

Thank you to all the CS people who turned up to help at the event - we really couldn't have done it without you.

Thank you to the CS people who came down to support our event - it just wouldn't be the same without seeing all the familiar faces.

Thank you Stanley for being my programmer. But I minus some marks cos like me, you were also running around everywhere!

Thank you Weetz and Firus for being possibly the only friends outside CS to come down for me.

Thank you to all the sponsors who made the event possible and our goodie bag valuable.

Thank you to all the people who didn't come down but SMS-ed me and wished me luck.

Thank you, if I forgot to thank you, for your support.

Qiqi tweeted that "Happiness is surely only short-lived." But Weetz has taught me that there should be things to celebrate! Celebrate often! Celebrate success! Find things to celebrate, to be happy about.

And King Kong Jane's success has brought me such happiness and given me things to celebrate! Pages in the newspaper! Album on the charts! Celebratory gig at the Home Club on April 1st!

Celebrate that the event is done! Celebrate that FYP is about to end! Celebrate that my friends came down for me! Celebrate the fact that on the 20th of March, all the people who mattered came down - it was a celebration of relationships that we have with the people in our lives.



From the four of us - Thank you all.

Too Busy To Blog

In what is the worst drought of blogging in many years, it must be this.

If you're reading it, thank you for dropping by. For caring about what I'm up to.

I promise to write as soon as 20th March is over.

Love Your Heart.

Till The World Ends

Nowadays I look in the mirror and I think, "Who is this?". Not that I don't recognise myself but I don't recognise myself. It's kind of silly - I've been busy with work - school work, FYP work, tuition work. Sometimes I enjoy it, sometimes I hate it. And before all this will end, I should decide on what work I'm going to do after I graduate. Which is kind of silly if you think about it. How does the majority of the people decide what they want to do for the rest of their lives? How do those strategic people start planning how they want to proceed and excel in their routes when I am here as clueless as a person without a clue?

Finding happiness is hard work. Accepting happiness is hard work. Knowing what you want and finding out how to get it... is beyond hard.

In other news, while thinking of what to wear for Put Your Heel Down at Zouk tonight, I am at a lost as to what to wear. Which is ridiculous. There needs to be another sale at Topman and I need to buy some clothes. This is all.

I can't take it take it take no more. Never felt like felt like this before. Come on get me get me on the floor. DJ what you what you waiting for.

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