Debuts 4th Nov

She Needs Crazy

T: Jason! Tomorrow can you walk me back after exam welfare haha cos i need to carry the containers back to refill for next week :D

J: Yeah of course. I'm e knight in shining armour like all. The. Time. Countless distressed damsels. Sure. No prob.

T: Aha im not damsel in distress la lol im like how man!!!!!!! Hahaha okay thanks mucho! :)

Jump

I played a character who was silly and most definitely stupid. He's a good-for-nothing slacker who sits around all day waiting to win 4-D. He's a disgusting, loathesome character. Someone for everyone to laugh at; the butt of all the jokes. He's funny, but in a pathetic way. He's a handsome chap though, which was why I agreed to play him. Regardless, it's probably his only redeeming feature. He drinks, smokes and waves to pretty girls who walk by.

Especially if she is freaking hot, in jaw-dropping 3-inch heels and a little black dress and channeling Britney Spears.

If there's one thing he has though, it's the drive.

Drive, and crazy determination. That is why I probably enjoyed myself so much. What do characters do so that the audience can relate to them? Play, with undying determination, to the character's goal. And this guy gets what he wants.

He lost his potential winning 4D ticket to the wind.

If it were me, I would give up. It's a ridiculous fight. I'd mull over it and get on with life.

He didn't. Odds are nothing. He just got off his ass and ran. He ran and he ran and he ran. He hopped, skipped and jump. He tried to snatch it out of the sky. He tried to use both hands to lay a clap on it. He even wanted to body slam it when it touched the ground but he might as well have used a butterfly net with a hole the size of a bowling ball. It is heart warming to see a person try so hard. It's the reason why we root for the underdog.

The fucking ticket even flew into the water and he jumped in with utter disregard for wet underwear!

Sometimes we second-guess ourselves too much. We hesitate. We doubt. We wait for more guarantees. Extra-comfort. Someone to give our confidence a boost. Someone to say that they'd be there if we fail. We think. We pause.

And we think of the what-ifs that aren't helpful at all.

Instead, plunge into the deep end. Regardless. The path is in front of you. Uncertainty is a wasteful emotion.

Tick-tock. Tick-tock.

Edit: I just touched the area above my left eyebrow and I felt a bump caused by my attempts at being Jackie Chan during the playground scene. And I find it an insanely apt metaphor for setbacks, pain and disappointment.

Dust yourself up and try again.

I Acted Again

Today, I...

Leaped.
Sprinted.
Crawled.
Waved.
Listened.
Panted.
Rolled.
Hung.
Banged.
Flung.
Splashed.

PAMOS Cast & Crew II

PAMOS Cast & Crew I

PAMOS Productions

bOY WAKES UP IN HOSPITAL.

gIRL REALISES HE DOESN'T REMEMBER HER.

gIRL NURSES BOY BACK TO HEALTH.

tHEY FALL IN LOVE.

tHEY CELEBRATE HIS RECOVERY AT HER PLACE.

sHE LEAVES TO BUY A CAKE.

hE HEARS THE PHONE RING AND LOOKS FOR IT.

hE WANDERS INTO HER ROOM.

hE FINDS A WALL FULL OF HIS PHOTOS.

hIS HEAD HURTS.

hE REMEMBERS.

sHE IS A STALKER.

wHOM HE TRIED TO GET RID OF.

uNTIL ONE DAY SHE HIT HIM WITH A FIRE EXTINGUISHER.

hE SPRAWLED ON THE FLOOR, TREMBLING.

"jOHN?"

I Acted

Today, I...

Shouted.
Threatened.
Glared.
Cuddled.
Pleaded.
Moaned.
Panted.
Panicked.
Wandered.
Smiled.
Mused.
Realised.
Drank.
Collapsed.

Not So Coherent

I now have a vague idea of what I want to do in the future. To do that, I've got an idea of what I should be doing during the holidays. I should be studying now for the exams instead of thinking about the holidays. Priorities.

I've enjoyed myself tremendously filming for Pamy and Amos. There's going to be one final one tomorrow. The hospital scene was really fantastic. We did it at our school's medical centre. They described the filming as really professional and high-budget because of the number of people involved. It was an awesome collaboration among all of them - Pamy, Amos, Lyon, Joyce, Adeline, Chee Harn, Jinyong, Xiang Yu (I didn't miss out anyone did I?) to make the entire thing happen. I was really honoured to be involved. Hopefully I'll do it justice and they'll get an A + +.

Acting for film and for theatre is very different. It feels strange because I haven't got much experience in both but I'm feeling my way around. It's probably not my niche exactly but for now since I'm not really better at other stuff, I'll concentrate on this! I'd like to move into writing and directing though.

I bought The OC seasons 2 and 3 last night. I've waited half a decade for the price to fall and now I've finally got the both of them for 90 dollars. I think it's quite a steal. I can't wait for the other two to fall into my lap. The OC was really a big deal in shaping my life and attitudes growing up on it. I know that there's been comparison to Gossip Girl but I think the two are rather different. I could still remember the days JC where I was one of the few people watching it, till I went to the Army and talked about it in depth with Samuel.

There are some very real things to think about in life but I find it hard to balance thinking about the superficial and plotting daily actions to keep in line with the final goal. Sometimes we lose sight of the path. Sometimes we get distracted.

But at the end of the day I guess we live our lives for ourselves, and we are the ones whom we have to answer to.

Billboard Hot 100 #1 - Womanizer

It's Britney, bitch! Her first #1 since 1999's ...Baby One More Time. This calls for an all-out celebration. No holds-barred! I can't explain how happy I am. Imagine waiting for 9 years in your career so you can get another #1, not knowing if you'll ever get another #1... you know what I mean!

I cannot express how I feel now. I think it'll probably take another post but... for now...











For more celebration of the epic come-back, check here.

The Darkness

Sound of the piano plays
As I sit in the dark
Emotions dragged out of me
Like flashes in front of my eyes
Raw, bare
Tender

I try hard
To ignore
The negative
Only to feel that I’m grasping on
Nothing

The fans are still
The curtains unmoving
The haunting shadow of the window grill on the wall

Lines
Ending abruptly
Light
Weak
Sprawled over nowhere
Darkness
Enveloping

The strings begin
With its bows tugging at my heart
A sudden pause
I stop
I’m tempted to release it all in a flood
That I would not be able to hold back

But control
I would not like to lose
But the air is not moving
The temperature is rising
But I need comfort
In a form I cannot fathom
But to keep looking would be foolish
I should just sleep it off
But the music keeps playing
Thoughts in my head keep running

My throat is dry
Saliva doesn’t soothe it
It hurts more when I swallow
My thumb twitches involuntarily
There’s screaming and shouting
When all I want is my own corner
To drown in my
Own

Displeasure

Dissatisfaction

Unhappiness

Pain

To face up to them
So I can be free again.

Satan's Game

And I know that love will change us forever.

And I know that love will keep us together.

And I know. I know. There is nothing to fear.

And I know that love will take us away from here.

- Intervention, Madonna

Swagger Of A Champion

This week I've sang/danced POM in school with Jac.

Just saying.

I weighed myself on Friday evening and I'm 55kg. I am disgusted. I have no idea how I'm getting lighter and lighter. If this goes on, I might just shrink into space. The only thing that I feel that I've been doing different compared to this time last year is that I haven't been exercising as much. And I don't have Daniel to cook me potato with mayo and butter for supper. Gosh! Comments about me getting skinnier have been piling and I can't take it anymore! Sigh. Okay, I'll eat more and see what happens.

I think this sem is one of my craziest. Okay, I've only been in Uni for the third sem, but it seems to be getting more hectic every sem! It's another reason why I'm getting thinner, I bet! I decide to do less extra-cirricular stuff, and I end up having much more school work! It's scary.

My current obsession is Graphic Comm, which I took to print yesterday with Ros.



I know it's possible that the tutor wouldn't like it. I haven't really consulted him much on the idea becuase some how the idea didn't cement itself during the consultation sessions I've had with him. I hope he doesn't get a shock when he sees it. I know it's not a particularly impressive piece, but I did put in a lot of effort and I guess at the very least that's something I can be proud of.

And Britney was such an inspiration, as usual. I've got a bit of Missy Elliot, a bit of Energy in there, but I've got like 2 lines from MATM and another 2 from Womanizer. Haha...

Speaking of which the new Britney Spears video is OUT! It's crazy how much of my life is linked to what she's doing. I think this is probably the third time I've mentioned her in this post. Anyway you can check out the video over here. It's really an awesome come back from the mediocre GM and POM(mediocre for her but better than every other boring shit who has dared to have music videos Miley *coughs*).



There are many crazy elements for the Britney fans. The beginning word title is how Stronger began. There's the office scene that mirrors some Slave sequences. There's the fat guy in the Toxic video. There's Britney with wet hair close up from MATM. There's that angle where she's feeding the cherry that reminds me of ILRNR. Then the bed sequence is quite Toxic too. I could come up with a thesis of this but I think it belongs to another entry.

I shall not start on the steam room scenes.

Okay, so maybe just one line:

Smokin'.

Beyonce, I can't think of a worse time to release a music video.

The last acting lesson was a blast. I enjoy going for lessons because everyone's really hilarious. They are disgustingly good at improv and caused us to laugh so crazily that... well, it was certainly one of the most memorable lessons. I was real glad that when Ros and I were the last people up there, it was actually hilarous. The worst part is that It got so funny that I actually broke out of character and laughed along. I can't describe the feeling but I walked back to hall after the lesson with a huge, huge smile plastered on my face.

I bet I looked retarded. But it was a great feeling.

Now if only those mugging mods were equally fun.

Sigh.