Hall 12 Collage

It's been a great year to be in Hall 12 Publications. I got to do this collage, out of which I took three of the photos. I must say I'm quite happy with what I've done, although it could've been a bit better. I guess I'm rusty from not having done this kinda work for a long time. I even had to re-teach myself how to use the layer mask! LOL. Speaking of which, I've just applied for hall for next sem. Hope I'll get what I want!

Fifi

Pretty Disgusted

It was drama at Zouk yesterday. I didn't bring any ID. I couldn't get in. I used someone else's ID. The bouncer asked me for the address which I couldn't give. I had memorised the IC number instead. He was this close from banning me. Luckily YL came down with my Matric Card and IC, which she took to photocopy to apply for the Citibank card on my behalf, which ironically, was going to get me into Zouk for free in the future.

Well what can I say.

Got into Phuture, saw Edwin and Jayne on the catwalk.

Danced to so-so music.

Got into a fight with this bitch who kept shoving and shaking and invading my space. Definitely wasn't the most matured thing to do. She shoved, I pushed. Then she screamed, profanities aplenty. I shouted back, louder, more vulgar and her friends pulled her away. I know the fact that she didn't have a comeback line didn't mean that I won but it felt like that. And her friends dragged her away.

I was in such a bad mood that I wasn't able to enjoy Circus and Gimme Moar when they played it immediately after that.

I was surprised that they played Never Be The Same Again. Classic.

For the rest of the night I was paranoid about people stepping into my space. Worst of all I didn't really dance. It was just bopping. I've had it with fucking Phuture for now. My best clubbing experiences were never at Zouk. Crappy crowd, okay music.

Butterfactory and Double-O are where I'm going to go after exams are done.

On A Journey

We find magic in special things. Things that are unexpected. Things that surprise us.

We create magic. By doing the same. Things that are unexpected. Things that surprise us. Providing a different angle, a different point of view.

That's why we're creative. That's why we have a stand. That's why we speak. And that's why we want to be heard.

Through life, through self-discovery, we change and become some other creature. We always want more because it's impossible to stop the process until the very end. Because if we reach the end before that we wouldn't know what to do with our lives, and that's why it's a continuous pursuit of the truth. Of the real us.

So that's how we find magic in life. There's a need for expression and a journey. Without meaning, it would be a life half-lived.

And that would be one that's not worth living.

Quasselstrippe

The benches are the place for us to chill, talk about school, talk about life, exchange ideas, eat our meals, listen to music and do nothing at all. In a sem where all of us got split up and we'll only get further apart when attachment happens next year, I really appreciate the fact that we get the chance to hang out.

It's the place where everything happens. Where familiar faces are.

In our little circles, we're enriched by each other and it's then that school life is at its most meaningful.

To Karyn... you saved my ass countless times and for reaching out to me and giving me a chance to be a friend.

To Cameron who told us about his atheist point of view, which was fucking funny and really made me go woah at his reasoning skills!

To Nessie for giving me inspiration for COM 227 by introducing me fmylife.com. It's the funniest shizzle ever as well.

To Ness for buying me cookies that weren't meant for me but letting me eat them any way and dropping by the editting suite.

To Ros who challenges me creatively and we're having another hell of a sem... it'll be weird working with other people!

To Qiqi who complimented my thisdiscosucks shirt!

To Mei Si for the cute sms after we looked through our rough cut for COM 225: Hello boyboy and galgal :) dun be depressed! we will make everything ok! :)

To Jinyong for leaving an obscene photocopied picture of Adeline around after LRQ and I came back from dinner.

To Lyon who always has to listen to me whine and behave like a kid even when he's like 2 years younger than me and cooler than me because he plays this cool red guitar.

To Christine and Adeline and Joyce who are trying their best to help me survive 226 although I think I've pulled my weight more than I did for some other module which I shall complain about next week. You guys are fucking funny and I love bickering with you guys... We make a fun team.

To LRQ and EH, hopefully after this sem we'll be back on track again just like old times. That day at the benches was it.

Rediscovery

Murder Mystery

A photographic story by V2.











And with me, there's always plenty of nonsense and joking around.





I was featured in 225 and 206 last sem and both projects got A. I think professors like my face. Did I mention that I was in Kyle's Flow photo too? See! I'm a lucky star. Hopefully the winning streak continues and Ness gets an A too! YAY!

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHH

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

Still

Still doing too much at once. Everything needs to go. 4 more weeks. This semester needs to end.

In these crazy times... friends are the people who keep me going. Thanks guys.

Real Real Love

The Circus Starring Britney Spears

There hasn't been a Britney post in a long time. Anyway unless you were living under a rock, Britney has started her tour across America and she's doing very well. Okay, so it isn't as good as her previous tour from what I've seen so far. She's not dancing as much and sometimes not a single song is live (except for some freak times she performed Everytime), but she's still the one to beat when it comes to that kind of power that she wields on stage.

There are a couple of epic moments. This is one of them.


It's another one of her re-enactments of mass orgy scenes. There're similar stuff in the Slave and Womanizer video. This was from her performance of Get Naked. Her best dance is arguably here where she puts in a bit more effort for Boys/If U Seek Amy:



Watch for the rude dance moves during ha-ha-hee-hee-ha-ha-ho! The official music video should debut tomorrow!

Something Wrong

I know I'd regret this when I feel happier. But now I just need somewhere to vomit.

There is truly something wrong with me and my inability to connect with people. There's something wrong with my life in general and I think I'm old enough to see it, just too blind to it to correct it.

My phone's off. I'm not going on MSN. You can't contact me. So there!

There was once I thought I could go places with looks. And I don't look that bad. I've been doing this completely stupid, superficial thing (let's not talk about self-worth) where I've been asking people to NAME people who are better looking than me. And obviously it's only a handful. The WORST part of it is now I actually don't have it. It's deteriorating as we speak because I'm trying to focus on intellectual stuff. Like school work.

I'm now fucking pissed because of school work. I can't believe one can go from such a high to such a low in moments. With regards to the same thing!

I need a break. I've been telling my friends that I don't give a rat's ass if I get an F now. I really don't care. I just need this semester to be over. I cannot handle it any more. I don't know how other people do it. Either they don't have a life, don't try hard enough to have a life, are doing what they like, or this is just too easy for them.

I'm now thinking of giving tuition as a full-time job and quitting school. It sounds like an awesome option. After all I could earn about 130 dollars a day, and I probably have to work about 4 days a week and I could get 2000+ a month! That's not bad for 3 days off.

Lyon told me that I should stop giving tuition. I guess that's true. I've got too much on my hands, which is probably why I feel that I'm not coping. Funny how, with regards to this, only him saying it gets through to me.

Deadlines are important to any good story. Or narrative structure of a movie if you think about it. Birthdays, meetings, parties, celebrations, work, fucking expiry dates on pineapple cans... all coming together and crashing down at one shot. Even better for drama if you've got all different aspects of your life in trouble together (like a real fucking orchestra) - love, friendship, academic, financial, physical...

I feel like I'd make an excellent character.

I don't understand why I've always been rather optimistic and happy and now I'm just... not.

Believe me, I'm not feeling sorry for myself. It's not effective. And I don't do things that aren't effective. Bugger off. It's just these things that I'm feeling and these things that I'm thinking.

I'm breaking apart. It feels like Humpty Dumpty. And all the King's horses and all the King's men couldn't put Humpty together again. It hurts. I'm angry, pained, frustrated and I can't think of any one to turn to.

I don't trust any one to deal with me right now.

I don't trust myself around anyone.

Just Doing What We Do

Scumbug and imbarrassed.

Pounding The Pavement

I went for a run last night. I almost forgot how good it felt to have my running shoes pounding on the pavement and that single-minded determination to keep going. I haven't felt so in control and such a whole - body, heart and mind. It's been I year. I don't know why I stopped. Weirdly enough I imagined the 4 other people who've ran with me before, running with me. It was as if they were there pushing me on. Then there was music. I haven't ran with my mp3 player for more than 2 years and the feeling's incredible. With every beat of the bass, my foot would come into contact with the ground and it's just impossible to stop going.

There's so much on my mind, but there's only so much I can do. There's only so much time I have, so much sleep I need. I should live life the way I want it and not copy how others are living it.

Surf N Sweat

It was cloudy and it rained after and we applied sunblock, but we still got burned!



We lost 5-21, 11-21, 1-21, 11-21, but we still had fun. So what the hell.



YAY TEAM WEE!

Flow

Calling all CS students!



Thanks Zed! You're awesome!