Turning Point

As much as I am complaining like a deranged banshee, I've been enjoying myself this exam period. Granted I find exams more stupid because my GPA is now in the "hopelessly low" category and that it's a test of my memory skills. I'm so much more than what I can remember. I won't need to remember such nonsense when I come out to work!

Well, maybe I'm just bitter.

I've been enjoying myself. Not having to go to school means every morning I wake up at about 9. I go online for an hour and check my e-mail, Facebook and ONTD, and when it doesn't rain, which was about thrice this week, I go for a run or a swim. And then I come back, have a shower, sit in front of the computer and have lunch while watching an awesome drama. Currently it's either Brothers & Sisters, Heroes or Desperate Housewives.

I think I'm even less prepared than I was in every single semester before. But it doesn't matter because slowly, I'm learning what I want out of life. And it's not grades. Granted I might be bitter because I'm not getting good grades, so I don't really have a choice - I just get fucked up grades.

However I feel alive. With all this time on my hands, I feel enriched. I do study. But I do other stuff as well. I think it's a good transition. It helps me keep stuff in perspective before I go on my six-month internship.

Strangely despite all the stress studying brings, I've what I need. I'm happy.