Just One Chance

I don't know where to start. I'm not in the mood to write something fantastic.
Perhaps just honest.

This week we had 3 volleyball matches. This team was tight. We didn't always perform the best we could but I always felt the chemistry and teamwork and encouragement that went around when we were playing. I felt the pressure to do well but it was coming entirely from myself and not anyone else in the team.

It's also my first time playing as a setter. It an awesome feeling and it was really refreshing and challenging to play out of my comfort zone.

Of the three matches, we won 1 (by walkover so that's 15-0, 15-0 HSS). We would've really liked to play that one because we were really psyched up for it but the last one that we played is etched in my memory as the best game I've ever played. We went from 0-7 to a deuce. 14-14.

But we lost that one. It was a real pity.

It's a great way to kickstart the new semester, heck, the new year! Playing with this great bunch of guys is memorable. The dynamics was really different from last year and I think it worked really well.

I'm super grateful (I think a scroll through this blog will dig up quite a few of these kinds of posts) to everyone in the team. Edwin, Wei Yang, See Keng, Teh Ping, Derek and Joel. Playing was just such a rush.

I've got 2 more years to play for CS. Urgh! 2 more. Only.

I'll make the most of it.

Gratitude

I really don't know where to begin, other than it's 3:14 AM and I'm really exhausted and I hope that all of you are in bed. Yes, you, especially you with the morning lectures.

Edwin and I are really incredibly grateful to all of you who stayed with us till the very end. Don't make me name names I'm so tired I might miss out some people. Okay like what the hell alright: Liz, Zed, Pedro, Candy, Suffi... anyone else? Thanks to Jayne for DJ-ing for us for quite some time and also Sean who had to care for other drunk people and thus made a move. Also I must say that when I did the deco with you guys for Homecoming (putting up the cloth and all that) it was probably the time that I felt closest to you guys - like we had some great internal teamwork thingy going on.

(The ability to type this after many beers is in itself awesome so don't judge the content.)

Anyway back to the point, I was just very impressed with all you guys and your commitment has earned my respect. I'm sorry I haven't been around much for quite a bit of stuff (textbook sales, carrying cartons of beer etc) but it's because the 3-day school week doesn't leave me very free to be around from Mon-Wed. As always if there's anything that you think I can help with just ask I'll be glad to help if I can make it.

Yes I feel indebted. Haha...

Anyway good job guys, once again THANK YOU ALL for playing your part in making it a (resounding is subjective lar but people enjoyed themselves so it is thus a) success. =) Really appreciate it.

Oh yeah and thank you two nutcases as well. My party people.

Xin Fang Ke

Apprehensively, I stepped into the room.

It was unfamiliar. New. Curiosity begged me to stay but I was never a fan of the strange. The smells, the sights, the space... how would I even know if it suit my taste? Maybe it's just a phase to be looking around for something different. I expected a breath of fresh air but instinctively I told myself not to be optimistic.

Fear gained momentum inside. I was an intruder. It's a place where I shouldn't be.

I searched frantically for the the exit.

But logic told me to calm down. There was nothing to be frightened of, nothing really. After awhile, somehow, the room calmed me down. It made me smile. Then it made me laugh. It was a silly, light-hearted kind of laughter. Idiotic even.

I stood there, motionless, for the longest time.

People are like rooms in our heads. A place where we store our interactions, emotions, expectations, character traits... A room full of of the most luxurious furniture. A room empty, stripped and bare. A warm room, a cold room, a room of nightmares or a room full of pleasant dreams.

We enter and exit the lives of those around us all the time - a conscious and unconscious choice.

Good vibes and chemistry are hard to come by. I think I'll be visiting this room for a long time to come.

if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me

Last Call

Hot and Cold

Jac's right. This blog needs less angsty.

Too Thin

4th fucking semester and I'm still stuck with the same problem: I'm spreading myself out too thin over too many things to be completed within... too short a time.

I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing.

It's time to say no to everything.