Loser / Wreck

It's 5 AM and I'm sitting here, staring in front of the computer. I'm supposed to be doing my assignment but I can't seem to get started. My mind is unable to focus despite the fact that 3 hours have gone by and I haven't done anything productive. It's torture to need to get something done yet be unable to do it. It's that paralyzing sense of helplessness.

The sun's going to rise in a couple of hours. If only the good life was handed to me on a silver platter. I want to know how to be contented. I want to know how to be happy. I want to know how not to hurt. I want to know how to slow things down.

Why is it moving on fast forward all the time? Why are there deadlines? Why do I not know what I want.

And I could say it a million times and it wouldn't be enough.

I hate whiny stuff. I miss the good times... where I'd go on and on about music, about my happy life, about stupid, juvenile, pointless but happy stuff. Light, floaty, sweet - just like cotton candy. Superficial but if it looks so good that you'd eat it, why not? I don't mind if people don't take me seriously. I don't need to emo to show that I have depth to my thinking.

I need that secret formula for that happy ending. I know, then there'd be no point living life and finding out all the surprises that it can bring. There's no formula. There are no rules.

There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of.

If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

I'm so-so-so-sorry. I'm so-so-so-sorry. I didn't mean to break it baby.

I can't wait for Thursday.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

“We were meant to lose people. How else would we know how important they are?”

It was really awesome and might probably be the first DVD of a film that I'll ever get. Somehow the themes and messages resonated with me and probably how I feel about life at this point of time. The segment about cause and effect that led to the female lead getting knocked down by the cab was awesome. There were many moving moments that were captured and expressed powerfully. It's the kind of storytelling I like - full of drama that's true-to-life, that crosses cultures and beliefs.

The dialogue was really wonderful.

And I enjoyed looking through the eyes of a character that has to live with such an unusual circumstance. I get what people say when they thought that Brad Pitt's activing was bleurgh and personally I don't like people who are too pretty for the screen (like Tom Cruise). This is probably the second movie that I've seen featuring Pitt after Mr and Mrs Smith. I thought the plot travelled along at a decent pace so he was fine in it. Cate Blanchett, on the other hand, was freaking awesome. She drove me out of my mind with her acting in Notes On A Scandal and this one's equally engaging and effective.

At 3 hours I think some people might find it a little long but for me it was magnificent storytelling. A story of lives with all the best bits fleshed out that I was hooked to every moment and observing how things led from one to another.

Brilliant and refreshing.

5/5

Rossypoo's Birthday

There was more sex talk this time round because of some female magazine but Ros and her smile when we gave her the present was the absolute highlight of the night.

It's Like Because

Tomorrow night I am supposed to be...

1. Interviewed for a project
2. De-thorning roses for FOC
3. Cooking for combined-hall bazaar for DND
4. Attending a meeting with the CI Club
5. Having Dance Rehearsals

Unfortunately there is only one me, so something's gotta give.

I'm so dead tired today after reshooting the 225 project. I was so excited about directing my portion but the sungun died on me. I was very angry with that because it could've been much more exciting but I guess it was meant to be. I don't dare to impose on my actors and groupmates any more. It was a decent effort.

I am so looking forward to Thursday. It's my only day off. Well not totally because I have tuition but yeah, Thursday is a good day. Friday will be spent editting, Saturday in Suntec for NTU Openhouse and Sunday will be an entire day of tuition.

Sombody save me.

10 Hits 1

1. Halo - Beyonce
2. Let It Rock - Kevin Rudolf ft Lil Wayne
3. Diva - Beyonce
4. Circus - Britney Spears
5. Great DJ - The Ting Tings
6. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
7. I Hate This Part - The Pussycat Dolls
8. Untouched - The Veronicas
9. Run - Leona Lewis
10. Day 'n' Nite - Kid Cudi vs Crookers

A revival.

Moments Like These

Scribbles on my hand. Hospitable Melvin. Awesome curry. Sex talk.